I got 1 more fucking sadest thing ever :'( I don't know what I'm supposed to do know. All I feel is, I'm tired of wishing. I'm tired of hopping. But seems like I don't wanna get over you each time. but really I always guessing Whether he still love me or not. I'm afraid that he doesn't love me anymore. I'm scared. But I guess I deserve for this. I'm the one who broke our faith. So if he really doesn't love me anymore. I'll let you go. I'm going to accept it. :(
And sometimes I do. And you get hurt. Really hurt, but you don't admit it. You won't. But I see the signs, it's written all over you. I know and really really know, this is my foolishness and everything make you very dissapointed with me.
You want friendship, and I won't that. But it's hard, because all I really want to is to throw myself into your arms and cling to you and say that I love you and just be happy,
Sometimes I get these impulses that tell me to just go for it, you've got nothing to lose, he'll accept you, he loves you, just do it already, and when I sometimes in a moment of insanity decide to do exactly that, I see you with her, and the fire that is within me, the fire only you can help me control and nurture, dies instanly. It crackles down to nothing in a split second, and I am left with this blue feeling: the death of a fire so bright and orange turned into a blue, cold heap of ice.
and maybe I break you so much, all the time, and I don't even realize it.
if you think it's better for you and actually not for me, I just wanna said 2 words and it's can depute all I guess. "thankyou" & "SORRY" :( I don't want it happended.
and moon knew everything :) and you always be my best eggplant now or forever :'')
"moon tell him that I Love Him <3" 07112011/12122011 till forever....
